but I will hold on hope

I'll know my name as it's called again


Dear Yuletide Writer 2015
pretty pretty prose, i am so smart S-M-R-T, writing skillz
puella_nerdii
Thanks so much for writing for me!

As a general note, I know my prompts have a ton of questions and options, but by no means do I expect you to address every single one in whatever you write. I'm mostly trying to give my Yuleauthors a lot of options because I know the matching process isn't always exact. That being said, if the prompts really aren't working for you and there's another story you want to tell, feel free to ditch the prompts entirely and do your own thing -- I'll still want to read that story.

So! Things I like. I love CONFLICT and CONSEQUENCES, whatever forms they might take. I love seeing the personal impact of larger, world-changing events. I love struggle and recovery and things that don't come easily and things that don't work out as planned and strength that comes from unexpected places. Hurt/comfort is the sweet angst-flavored nectar of my soul.

I also like: facepunching; snappy dialogue; moral complexity; the occasional happy ending; the occasional less-literal-more-euphemistic happy ending; long slow awkward relationship development; people who never get to make out; people who do get to make out; people who have to jump through rings of fire before they can make out; and issues of agency and authority.

My favorite character tropes include: fallen idealists, and people who do the wrong things for (what they hope are) the right reasons and get slapped in the face with consequences. Genuinely good people trying to do the right thing in unjust worlds. People who are equal parts cocky brilliance and self-destruction. Characters who are giant dopey puppies. Hypocrites, especially when the characters in question know that they’re hypocrites. Tsunderes. Characters who are struggling with their inner monsters, especially when literal monsters are involved. Broken people trying to put themselves back together and not being quite sure how to do it.

I'm comfortable with any and all ratings and quite a few pairings, too, as long as you make me believe the sex/violence/etc. within the context of the story. I definitely like porn, and love kink. Genrewise, I like everything from romance to horror to humor, as long as there's conflict in it somewhere. (So non-sequitur-derived humor and fluff/sap don't really do it for me.) Happy endings are fine, unhappy endings are fine, endings that are a little bit of both are fine, as long as the characters have earned them through their actions and through the consequences of those actions.

If you're doing Yuleporn this year, my Yuleporn-specific prompts are over here.

Do Not Wants: Misogyny and slut-shaming (especially as the punchline of a joke). Queer erasure. Infallible protagonists. Pregnancyfic, especially mpreg. Incest. Romanticizing abuse. Scat, vomit, and watersports. Detailed descriptions of violence inflicted on hands or eyes.

Situational DNWs: Issues of consent (dub- or noncon). Polyamory, particularly polyamory as the solution to a love triangle. AUs. Fix-it fic. Unless I’ve talked about these in the optional details of a specific request, please don’t include them.

My LJ is pretty barren these days, but I'm fairly active on tumblr if you want even more of a window into what I like. My older fic is largely accessible via my fic tag on LJ; newer stuff is either on my AO3 or fic tag on tumblr.

More about my requests: Hamilton - Miranda, Cowboy Bebop, A Dark Room (Video Game), Suikoden IIICollapse )

As far as obtaining things goes:
  • Hamilton: Fortunately for those of us who look upon the ticket availability and despair, the complete original Broadway cast recording is on spotify, the lyrics plus annotations are on Genius, and you can purchase the album for $20 on iTunes. Since Hamilton is almost entirely sung/rapped through, the OBCR contains the entire show except for one scene, which Lin-Manuel Miranda put up on tumblr anyway. The album is around two and a half hours long. Do not listen to Act II on public transit if you don't like crying in front of people.
  • Cowboy Bebop is 26 episodes long. Each episode runs about 20-25 minutes. You can watch the whole show for free on Hulu. (I highly recommend watching the dubbed version, if you can -- it's excellent.)
  • A Dark Room is free to play here. If you have an iOS device, you can purchase the game in the iTunes store, too. The mobile version has a few more story events. It took me about three hours to complete the game, and it's the kind of game you can (and sometimes have to) leave idling in the background for a little while.
  • Suikoden III is now available on the PSN for $10! You can snag a used copy for the PS2 on Amazon for $20 or so, but the PSN version's definitely more cost-effective. Suikoden III takes about 35-40 hours to play if you stick to the main plot, and around 55-60 hours if you're a completionist.

    Thanks again, Yuletide author - I hope you have fun this year!

    - Puel

  • Dear Yuletide Writer 2014
    oh look puel's being pretentious again, in which i say social construct a lot
    puella_nerdii
    Thanks so much for writing for me! I love all my teeny-tiny fandoms, and I'm thrilled that other people want to tell stories about them, too.

    As a general note, I know my prompts have a ton of questions and options, but by no means do I expect you to address every single one in whatever you write. I'm mostly trying to give my Yuleauthors a lot of options because I know the matching process isn't always exact. That being said, if the prompts really aren't working for you and there's another story you want to tell, feel free to ditch the prompts entirely and do your own thing -- I'll still want to read that story.

    So! Things I like. I love CONFLICT and CONSEQUENCES, whatever forms they might take. I love seeing how the macro- affects the micro-. I love struggle and recovery and things that don't come easily and things that don't work out as planned and things that must be dealt with and strength that comes from unexpected places. Hurt/comfort is the sweet angst-flavored nectar of my soul.

    I also like: facepunching; snappy dialogue; moral complexity; the occasional happy ending; the occasional less-literal-more-euphemistic happy ending; long slow awkward relationship development; people who never get to make out; people who do get to make out; people who have to jump through rings of fire before they can make out; and issues of agency and authority.

    My favorite character tropes include: fallen idealists, and people who do the wrong things for (what they hope are) the right reasons and get slapped in the face with consequences. Genuinely good people trying to do the right thing in unjust worlds. People who are equal parts cocky brilliance and self-destruction. Characters who are giant dopey puppies. Hypocrites, especially when the characters in question know that they’re hypocrites. Tsunderes. Characters who are struggling with their inner monsters, especially when literal monsters are involved. Broken people trying to put themselves back together and not being quite sure how to do it.

    I'm comfortable with any and all ratings and quite a few pairings, too, as long as you make me believe the sex/violence/etc. within the context of the story. I definitely like porn, and love kink. Genrewise, I like everything from romance to horror to humor, as long as there's conflict in it somewhere. (So non-sequitur-derived humor and fluff/sap don't really do it for me.) Happy endings are fine, unhappy endings are fine, endings that are a little bit of both are fine, as long as the characters have earned them through their actions and through the consequences of those actions.

    Do Not Wants: Misogyny and slut-shaming (especially as the punchline of a joke), unless those attitudes get deconstructed in-story. Queer erasure. Infallible protagonists. Pregnancyfic, especially mpreg. Incest. Romanticizing abuse. Scat, vomit, and watersports. Detailed descriptions of violence inflicted on hands or eyes.

    Situational DNWs: Issues of consent (dub- or noncon). Polyamory, particularly polyamory as the solution to a love triangle. AUs. Fix-it fic. Unless I’ve talked about these in the optional details of a specific request, please don’t include them.

    My LJ is pretty barren these days, but I'm fairly active on tumblr if you want even more of a window into what I like. My older fic is largely accessible via my fic tag on LJ; newer stuff is either on my AO3 or fic tag on tumblr.

    More about my requests: Macross Frontier, Animorphs - Katherine A. Applegate, Sleepy Hollow, Sengoku BasaraCollapse )

    As far as obtaining things goes:
  • Macross Frontier is unfortunately not available legally in the US (although other countries might have an easier time of it) due to licensing issues with the franchise. There are plenty of streams and torrents around, though. The anime is 25 episodes long.
  • Animorphs is also a little hard to get, as it’s out of print, and the site offering the whole series in ebook format just had to remove those ebooks. You can find used copies for pennies on Amazon, or find a torrent for the ebooks, but it’s a process. The series is 54 books long, with most of the books clocking in at around 20-30k, plus a bunch of specials. Loren is one of the main characters in The Andalite Chronicles, one of the aforementioned specials, and enters the series proper in the 49th book.
  • Sleepy Hollow is actually easy to find! Yay! If you aren’t currently watching it on Monday nights on Fox, you can find it on Hulu. The first season is 13 episodes long; 5 episodes have aired of the second season at the time of this letter. Each episode is about 40 minutes long.
  • Sengoku Basara is another undertaking. Oichi’s first appearance is in Sengoku Basara 2 as an NPC; she becomes playable in Sengoku Basara 2: Heroes. Neither game is available in English, although there are playthroughs on YouTube and translated game scripts on GameFAQs. Sengoku Basara 3 is available in English as Sengoku Basara: Samurai Heroes, although you’re going to have to sink in a fair bit of play time before you unlock Oichi. Sengoku Basara 4 is also unavailable outside Japan. Oichi appears in the first season (and briefly in the second season) of the Production I.G. anime, which you can find on YouTube and Hulu. Judge End, an anime adaptation of the third game, is available through Funimation.

    Thanks again, Yuletide author -- I hope you have fun this year!

  • Dear 2013 Yuletide Author
    suit the action to the word, scraps from a great feast of languages, the goddamn shakespeare
    puella_nerdii
    Dear Yuletide Author,

    Thanks so much for writing for me! I love all my teeny-tiny fandoms, and I'm thrilled that other people want to tell stories about them, too.

    As a general note, I know my prompts have a ton of questions and options, but by no means do I expect you to address every single one in whatever you write. I'm mostly trying to give my Yuleauthors a lot of options because I know the matching process isn't always exact. That being said, if the prompts really aren't working for you and there's another story you want to tell, feel free to ditch the prompts entirely and do your own thing -- I'll still want to read that story.

    So! Things I like. I love CONFLICT and CONSEQUENCES, whatever forms they might take; I love seeing how the macro- affects the micro-; I love struggle and recovery and things that don't come easily and things that don't work out as planned and things that must be dealt with and strength that comes from unexpected places.

    I also like: facepunching, snappy dialogue, moral complexity, the occasional happy ending, the occasional less-literal-more-euphemistic happy ending, cocky sons-of-bitches, long slow awkward relationship development, people who never get to make out, people who do get to make out, people who have to jump through rings of fire before they can make out, goofballs, brilliant and self-destructive people (who are also sometimes goofballs), and issues of agency and authority.

    I'm comfortable with any and all ratings and quite a few pairings, too, as long as you make me believe the sex/violence/etc. within the context of the story. I definitely like porn, and love kink. Genrewise, I like everything from romance to horror to humor, as long as there's conflict in it somewhere. (So non-sequitur-derived humor and fluff/sap don't really do it for me.) Happy endings are fine, unhappy endings are fine, endings that are a little bit of both are fine, as long as the characters have earned them through their actions and through the consequences of those actions.

    What I don't want: misogyny and slut-shaming (especially as the punchline of a joke), unless those attitudes get deconstructed in-story. Queer erasure. AUs, particularly a/b/o AUs, unless I've asked for AUs in the request. (Normally I'm all for AUs, but in three out of my four requests this year, I'm more interested in the world of the canon.) Infallible protagonists. Pregnancyfic, especially mpreg. Romanticizing abuse. Scat, vomit, and watersports. Detailed descriptions of violence inflicted on hands or eyes. For purposes of these requests, I'm not interested in seeing issues of consent (dub- or noncon/rape), though I'm all right with having it be a background element in the story if it's already present in the canon. I'm neutral on poly, but poly-fixes-everything stories make me grit my teeth.

    My LJ is pretty barren these days, but I'm fairly active on tumblr if you want even more of a window into what I like. My older fic is largely accessible via my fic tag on LJ; newer stuff is either on my AO3 or fic tag on tumblr.

    More about my requests: Awoken - Serra Elinsen, Parasol Protectorate - Gail Carriger, Sengoku Basara, Fate/ZeroCollapse )

    As far as obtaining things goes:
  • Awoken is, like a lot of paranormal YA, a fairly quick read. Amazon has it for $11 in paperback and $5 on the Kindle.
  • Parasol Protectorate - Gail Carriger: The individual books run about 300 pages or so each, and there are five in the series. Amazon has a great deal for the set in paperback and on the Kindle right now.
  • Sengoku Basara: Unfortunately, the games that feature Shingen and Kenshin most prominently haven't been given an English language release. (We do not speak of Devil Kings.) You can track down playthroughs of their story modes and stages for Sengoku Basara, SB2, and SB2 Heroes on YouTube, and there are script translations up on GameFAQs, but it's an undertaking. It's probably easier to tackle the anime, which is available for free on YouTube and Hulu. Each season is thirteen episodes long; Kenshin and Shingen have more to do in the first season but still play a fairly major role in the second.
  • Fate/Zero is both an anime and light novel series. The anime is 25 episodes long, and the whole thing's available for free on Crunchyroll. Baka-tsuki has a complete translation of the light novels here. The anime is, by and large, faithful to the light novels, though there's some material in the novels (including information about Sola-Ui) that doesn't make it into the anime.

    Thanks again, Yuletide author -- I hope you have fun this year!

    - Puel

  • Dear 2012 Yuletide Author
    pretty pretty prose, i am so smart S-M-R-T, writing skillz
    puella_nerdii
    Dear Yuletide Author,

    Thanks so much for writing for me! I love all my teeny-tiny fandoms, and I'm thrilled that other people want to tell stories about them, too.

    As a general note, I know my prompts have a ton of questions and options, but by no means do I expect you to address every single one in whatever you write. I'm mostly trying to give my Yuleauthors (Yulethors?) a lot of options because I know the matching process isn't always exact. That being said, if the prompts really aren't working for you and there's another story you want to tell, feel free to ditch the prompts entirely and do your own thing -- I'll still want to read that story.

    So! Things I like. I love CONFLICT and CONSEQUENCES, whatever forms they might take; I love seeing how the macro- affects the micro-; I love struggle and recovery and things that don't come easily and things that don't work out as planned and things that must be dealt with and strength that comes from unexpected places.

    I also like: facepunching, moral complexity, the occasional happy ending, the occasional less-literal-more-euphemistic happy ending, cocky sons-of-bitches, long slow awkward relationship development, people who never get to make out, people who do get to make out, people who have to jump through rings of fire before they can make out, goofballs, brilliant and self-destructive people (who are also sometimes goofballs), and issues of agency and authority.

    I'm comfortable with any and all ratings and quite a few pairings, too, as long as you make me believe the sex/violence/etc. within the context of the story. I definitely like porn, but porn isn't at all necessary if that isn't your thing. Genrewise, I like everything from romance to horror to humor, as long as there's conflict in it somewhere. (So non-sequitur-derived humor and fluff/sap don't really do it for me. ...well okay, except for my fourth request this year.) Happy endings are fine, unhappy endings are fine, endings that are a little bit of both are fine, as long as the characters have earned them through their actions and through the consequences of those actions.

    More about my requests: Bring It On, The Giver - Lois Lowry, Inheritance Trilogy - N.K. Jemisin, Sengoku BasaraCollapse )

    As far as obtaining things goes:
  • Bring It On is about an hour and a half, and I think you can purchase (and possibly rent) it directly from iTunes. Amazon has it pretty cheap, too.
  • The Giver is a fairly quick read, and I believe it's still in print. I know Amazon has it in multiple formats, and I bet a lot of other booksellers online and off do, too.
  • The Inheritance Trilogy is a longer read. I believe each book is around 400-500 pages, though don't quote me on that. It looks like you can get all three for $20 at Amazon, at least at the time of this post.
  • Sengoku Basara is the biggest time commitment out of all the fandoms I've made requests for. The game is pretty long, and you can track down playthroughs of the different routes and all the cutscenes on YouTube, but I don't think anyone's put up a complete script yet. It's probably easier to tackle the anime, which is available for free on YouTube and Hulu. Each season is thirteen episodes long; the second one introduces Hideyoshi and Hanbei and briefly shows Mitsunari and (the older version of) Ieyasu at the end. Mitsunari gets the spotlight in the movie, which is getting released on November 6th and can be pre-ordered on Amazon. (You can also find downloadable and/or streaming copies somewhere in the vast wilds of the Internet. Ahem.)

    Thanks again, Yuletide Author -- can't wait to see what you come up with!

    - Puel

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  • Grasping at Shadows [5/5] (Suikoden II, Jowy and the Highlanders)
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    Seven months, 38.5k words, 88 pages, three garbled save files, two lost notebooks, one additional playthrough, way too many weeks of writer’s block, hours of whining, and a ton of attempts to make sense of the weirder parts of SII’s script later, I stick a fork in this fic, for it is done at last.

    And you know what, I don’t say this kind of thing a lot, but I honestly think it’s one of the best things I’ve written. I’m certainly proud as hell of it. And hey, I finished a novella-length solo project for once. It’s kind of a milestone for me.

    Title: Grasping at Shadows [5/5] (AO3)
    Author: puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden II
    Characters: Jowy Atreides; Luca Blight, Leon Silverberg, Sasarai,
    Rating: R (...is "Warning: Luca Blight" sufficient? If not, violence-bordering-on-graphic, war crimes, and shit-gets-real thematic content should cover it.)
    Words: ~8.6k in this chapter, ~38.5k overall.
    Notes: This fic is unofficially subtitled Jowy Atreides's Terrible Life Choices, by the way. The entire thing, particularly every instance of the word "Silverberg" in it, is Mithrigil's fault, and she knows why. (Additional thanks to surskitty for sending me a copy of SII's script.)

    Summary: "I'll stop this war my own way. No, I'll never let a war like this break out on this soil again. And as you say, I'm prepared to be dishonored, if need be. Nevertheless..." - Suikogaiden 1, Chapter 2

    Jowy Atreides wants to slay a monster and bring down a nation. But he has to strike in the right place at the right time, and strike deep while hiding his intent, and the monster is watching -- and laughing.

    Chapter One
    Chapter Two
    Chapter Three
    Chapter Four
    Chapter Five: The death of Luca Blight, and the beginning of what comes after.

    The Unicorn Army has accepted Windamier's surrender. They let him keep his head.Collapse )

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    Grasping at Shadows [4/5] (Suikoden II, Jowy and the Highlanders)
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    Shorter chapter this time, and then there's just one left to go. Am I actually going to finish a solo longfic for once in my fannish life? Yes. Yes I am.

    And someone needs to shake Jowy and tell him if once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny. Seriously.

    Title: Grasping at Shadows [4/5] (AO3)
    Author: [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden II
    Characters: Jowy Atreides; Luca Blight, Jillia Blight, Seed, Culgan, and a certain cryptic seer.
    Rating: R (...is "Warning: Luca Blight" sufficient? If not, violence-bordering-on-graphic, war crimes, and shit-gets-real thematic content should cover it. Additional warning in this chapter for mentions of rape, as per Luca's backstory.)
    Words: ~5.7k in this chapter, ~30k overall.
    Notes: This fic is unofficially subtitled Jowy Atreides's Terrible Life Choices, by the way. The entire thing, particularly every instance of the word "Silverberg" in it, is Mithrigil's fault, and she knows why.

    Summary: "I'll stop this war my own way. No, I'll never let a war like this break out on this soil again. And as you say, I'm prepared to be dishonored, if need be. Nevertheless..." - Suikogaiden 1, Chapter 2

    Jowy Atreides wants to slay a monster and bring down a nation. But he has to strike in the right place at the right time, and strike deep while hiding his intent, and the monster is watching -- and laughing.

    Chapter One
    Chapter Two
    Chapter Three
    Chapter Four: It takes more than one man to start a war, and the death of one man won't finish it.

    Luca's in his best plate for this. Everyone in the hall knows what that means about the kind of king they're getting. Not all of them mind.Collapse )

    on to part five

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    Grasping at Shadows [3/5] (Suikoden II, Jowy and the Highlanders)
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    Biggest revelation for me in writing this chapter: I really love writing Jillia, and the more I write her, the more she reveals how awesome she is. (I was also excited to get a chance to introduce tiny!Albert, and I think this won't be the last time he pops up, either. D'aww, little precocious redheaded munchkin.)

    Making Jowy's life awkward and painful continues to be a delight. :D Hey, he does a lot of it to himself.

    Title: Grasping at Shadows [3/5] (AO3)
    Author: [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden II
    Characters: Jowy Atreides; Luca Blight, Jillia Blight, Agares Blight, Seed, Culgan, Leon Silverberg, and a guest appearance by tiny Albert Silverberg.
    Rating: R (...is "Warning: Luca Blight" sufficient? If not, violence-bordering-on-graphic, war crimes, and shit-gets-real thematic content should cover it. Additional warning in this chapter for mentions of rape, as per Luca's backstory.)
    Words: ~7.4k in this chapter, ~24.1k overall.
    Notes: This fic is unofficially subtitled Jowy Atreides's Terrible Life Choices, by the way. The entire thing, particularly every instance of the word "Silverberg" in it, is Mithrigil's fault, and she knows why.

    Summary: "I'll stop this war my own way. No, I'll never let a war like this break out on this soil again. And as you say, I'm prepared to be dishonored, if need be. Nevertheless..." - Suikogaiden 1, Chapter 2

    Jowy Atreides wants to slay a monster and bring down a nation. But he has to strike in the right place at the right time, and strike deep while hiding his intent, and the monster is watching -- and laughing.

    Chapter One
    Chapter Two
    Chapter Three: If you make me your brother, I'll make you king. In which Jowy lives up to his word.

    Leon skips the wine and goes straight for the brandy.Collapse )

    on to chapter four

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    A Hasty Proposition (Suikoden I, Flik/Odessa)
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    And then I switch from poking Jowy Atreides with all the sticks to Flik and Odessa being awkwardorable. I think this one is basically spoiler-free, too! Unless “Flik and Odessa are my precious precious babies” is a spoiler, which I don’t think it is.

    Title: A Hasty Proposition
    Authors: Mithrigil and Puella Nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden I
    Characters/Pairings: Flik/Odessa; Viktor, Humphrey, sundry members of the Liberation Army, and beer. Lots and lots of beer.
    Words: ~4800
    Rating: PG-13 (non-explicit but still-present discussion of sexytimes)
    Don’t know the fandom? You might still like this if you enjoy: Country boys and city girls, things as close to romantic comedy as Mith and Puel will ever get, gender-reversing traditional fantasy narratives, the prospect of a burly semi-drunk bear playing Dan Savage.

    Summary: Flik names his blade. He knows what that means. Odessa doesn’t.

    ( "'Cause yeah, that kid hasn’t been around any block I know, but he ain’t bad with a sword, so I figured--" )


    I'll add the LJ/DW links tomorrow, when Mith gets around to crossposting it over here.
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    Grasping at Shadows [2/5] (Suikoden II, Jowy and the Highlanders)
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    "Jowy and the Highlanders" almost sounds like the name of a band. That's not this 'verse, though.

    Also, writing this much Luca Blight really does necessitate showers afterward.

    Title: Grasping at Shadows [2/5] (AO3)
    Author: [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden II
    Characters: Jowy Atreides; Luca Blight, Seed, Culgan, Rowd, Riou, Leon Silverberg, and eventually the entire Highland cast.
    Rating: R (...is "Warning: Luca Blight" sufficient? If not, violence-bordering-on-graphic, war crimes, and shit-gets-real thematic content should cover it.)
    Words: ~6.3k in this chapter, ~16.7k overall.
    Notes: This fic is unofficially subtitled Jowy Atreides's Terrible Life Choices, by the way. The entire thing, particularly every instance of the word "Silverberg" in it, is Mithrigil's fault, and she knows why.

    Summary: "I'll stop this war my own way. No, I'll never let a war like this break out on this soil again. And as you say, I'm prepared to be dishonored, if need be. Nevertheless..." - Suikogaiden 1, Chapter 2

    Jowy Atreides wants to slay a monster and bring down a nation. But he has to strike in the right place at the right time, and strike deep while hiding his intent, and the monster is watching -- and laughing.

    Chapter One
    Chapter Two: Jowy makes his bid for power, and ends up with far more than he bargained for.

    No plan is too simple for an incompetent commander to ruin.Collapse )

    on to chapter three

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    Grasping at Shadows [1/5] (Suikoden II, Jowy and the Highlanders)
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    I have slaved over this thing for I don't know how long. Intermittently, I admit, since I was somewhat preoccupied with my thesis, but apparently I am telling the long and involved saga of Jowy Atreides's Terrible Life Choices because as much as I hate his stupid face, I also love him.

    I am not used to this telling-a-character's-story thing, y'all. Or to writing monsters. I blame Mith. Slightly-unfamiliar ground aside, I'm proud of this one.

    Title: Grasping at Shadows [1/5] (AO3)
    Author: [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden II
    Characters: Jowy Atreides; Luca Blight, Seed, Culgan, Rowd, Kiba Windamier, eventually the entire Highland cast, and Riou in absentia.
    Rating: R (...is "Warning: Luca Blight" sufficient? If not, violence-bordering-on-graphic, war crimes, and shit-gets-real thematic content should cover it.)
    Words: ~10.4k in this chapter (I know, I know)
    Notes: This fic is unofficially subtitled Jowy Atreides's Terrible Life Choices, by the way. The entire thing, particularly every instance of the word "Silverberg" in it, is Mithrigil's fault, and she knows why.

    Summary: "I'll stop this war my own way. No, I'll never let a war like this break out on this soil again. And as you say, I'm prepared to be dishonored, if need be. Nevertheless..." - Suikogaiden 1, Chapter 2

    Jowy Atreides wants to slay a monster and bring down a nation. But he has to strike in the right place at the right time, and strike deep while hiding his intent, and the monster is watching -- and laughing.

    Chapter One: Assassinating Anabelle may have secured Jowy a place in Highland's ranks, but it hasn't earned him anyone's trust -- least of all Luca Blight's.

    Anabelle's blood won't come off his knife.Collapse )

    on to part two

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    Grasping at Shadows [1.1/5] (Suikoden II, Jowy and the Highlanders)
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    back to part one

    part twoCollapse )

    on to chapter two

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    I am capable of talking about things other than Suikoden in this journal. ...maybe. ...someday.
    er i um uh, p-p-prince...
    puella_nerdii
    I finished Suikoden IV last night. And yes, I have thoughts.

    In retrospect, I think IV's story has a more solid start than I initially gave it credit for. It's not my favorite beginning in the series, necessarily, but it sets up a lot of things that have good narrative payoff potential and has some moments of delightful dumbness, too. Sure, navigating the world map consistently sucks, but the game itself didn't run off the rails for me until after Elenor's recruitment. And even then, I wasn't actively bugged until after the Fog Ship event. I wasn't connected to the game on the same level that I was with any of the other titles, including III, but I wasn't grinding my teeth, either. I should have known that those fucking elves heralded the beginning of the game going downhill for me.

    The following is a mixture of actual game analysis and making up dialogue on Lazlo's behalf.Collapse )

    As much of a letdown as the ending was, I'm still glad I played the game, and it did usually keep me entertained if not engaged. Playing it after I played all the other main titles probably put me in a more critical mode even though I went into the game with low expectations, simply because low expectations or no, I couldn't help comparing it to other titles in the series that did what it was trying to do a lot better. (And playing II right beforehand really didn't help, because II set my standards damn high.) But it's a piece of the Suikoden universe that I have now, even if it doesn't exactly link up with the rest of the series, and it was a way to fill the Suikovoid in my life a little.

    Man, now I'm done with all the main titles. ._. I still have to finish the rest of Gaiden (though I'm having the damndest time finding a translation for Gaiden II), and I might want to pick up Tactics just to get more context for IV (and because [personal profile] surskitty's reports are leaving me morbidly curious about what the fuck's going on with that game). I don't know if it's worth picking up a PSP just to play Tierkreis -- probably not -- but hey, it's not like the games have an expiration date, and I've been meaning to name Riou BunBun on my next go-round...

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    Suikoden IV: I'm On a Boat
    i'm with derpface
    puella_nerdii
    You know how I said I was going to skip Suikoden IV?

    I lied, apparently. My addiction to these games is that severe. And hey, there was a copy on eBay that only set me back about $15, and Mith said the game was worth that $15.

    I'm about two-thirds or three-quarters of the way through the game, and while it's definitely the weakest in the main series, it's not a bad game. I have played games that have made me want to throw my controller through the TV. (Xenosaga, I hate you with the fiery passion of a thousand burning suns.) IV doesn't make me want to do that. I'm not regretting my decision to play it, and I'm enjoying myself enough to make the experience worthwhile, even if I'm not really emotionally engaged with it.

    Further thoughts on The Adventures of Sharkbait and the Asspirate Army Aboard His Mighty Ship the Cocksurfer, as I'm calling the game. I should never be allowed to name things in RPGs.Collapse )

    Oddly enough for me and this series, I think I like IV best when it's being kind of silly, probably because I can't quite manage to take it seriously. And no, that's not just because I named my ship the Cocksurfer and my navy the Asspirates. It never quite achieves the narrative force to pull off the politics and some of the more serious themes it hints at, though I'll concede that the Rune of Punishment business mostly works. I'd probably like it if it weren't a Suikoden, because some of the features I like most in Suikoden games feel shoehorned in here. It's not a great game; whether or not it's a good one is even debatable because of some of the godawful mechanical issues. But it's not a bad way to spend fifteen bucks and thirty hours of gameplay.

    And making fun of Ted and Snowe hasn't yet lost its appeal, either.

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    Last Year's War [a Riou, Nanami, and Jowy fanmix]
    returning were as tedious as go o'er, in blood stepped so far
    puella_nerdii
    Another FST, because I need ALL THE PLAYLISTS for this fandom, apparently. ♥ This one is slightly more cohesive genre-wise.

    Title: Last Year's War [a Riou, Nanami, and Jowy fanmix]
    Mixer/Cover Design: [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden II
    Characters: Riou, Nanami, Jowy
    Notes: Eleven songs, kind of following Riou and Nanami and Jowy's collective arc over the course of the game. Most of the songs apply to all three of them, but each of them has one specific songcall in here, too (and Jowy, naturally, gets the most emo one). Some of the songs are a little Riou/Jowy-ish, if you're inclined to read them that way.



    featuring The Deadly Syndrome, The Stills, Mumford & Sons, Austra, Broken Bells, Framing Hanley, Two Suns, The Avett Brothers, Sarah Sleane, The Head and the Heart, Civil TwilightCollapse )

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    No Fighting In Front of the Tablet (Suikoden II, Luc, Futch)
    all work & no play makes luc a dull boy
    puella_nerdii
    Write more of thesis
    Write more of projects of substantial, uh, substance
    --> Write dumb teenage boy shenanigans and make fun of Luc a little bit in the process

    ...yeah I think that about covers it.

    Title: No Fighting In Front of the Tablet (AO3)
    Author: [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden II
    Characters: Futch, Luc, references to plenty of others
    Rating: PG
    Words: ~2300

    Summary: Luc doesn't like anyone. Really. And even if he does, it's none of Futch's business.

    I didn't ask if you liked me, I asked if you liked anyone. Though I guess I count as anyone.Collapse )

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    burning stars [a Tir McDohl fanmix]
    &our little life is rounded with a sleep, we are such stuff as dreams are made on
    puella_nerdii
    While I create a lot of character playlists, I don't often compile them into fanmixes. This is an exception, because I need more Suikoden songcalls, dammit. (There's a difference between songcalls and music from the game; I like the latter, but the former's what helps me sit down and get a handle on characters.) I'm tinkering around with a Jowy and Riou and Nanami one, too, and might post that in a few days.

    (And I saw The Hunger Games this past Sunday, but the reaction post for that is a Whole Big Thing and I'll post it in a little while.)

    Title: burning stars [a Tir McDohl fanmix]
    Mixer/Cover Design: [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden I(/II)
    Character: Tir McDohl
    Notes: Nine songs, all over the place in terms of genre but nothing too explicit content-wise. It's definitely more of an end-of-I/II take on Tir, which is to say it's pretty heavy on the angst. Ah, the joys of bearing a True Rune.



    featuring Max Richter, Al Stewart, Bon Iver, Arcade Fire, Shooting Guns, Stone Sour, Fleet Foxes, The Black Crowes, Mimicking BirdsCollapse )

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    When to Yield (Suikoden III, Chris/Lucia)
    attention: sex, you can raise welts like nobody else
    puella_nerdii
    HEY LOOK GUYS IT'S FEMSLASH

    Because really. Two female commanders with notable in-game chemistry testing each other through punching? What's not to love.

    For reference, This is Chris. This is Lucia. There's your context.

    Title: When to Yield (AO3)
    Author [personal profile] puella_nerdii
    Fandom: Suikoden III
    Rating: R (sparring and sexing)
    Word count: ~1900
    Spoilers: Nope. Hell, this one doesn't require much context at all.
    Summary: Sparring is about giving as good as you get, but sometimes you have to get before you give.
    Notes: Written for [community profile] areyougame for the following prompt: Suikoden III, Chris/Lucia: sparring - is this what you meant by weakness? Due on the 8th, whoops. Hope it still pleases!

    ( "How long has it been?" )

    Just linking to AO3 on DW, because I think everyone who reads me on DW has an AO3 account anyway...

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    Unicorn Records (in which Mith and I commit band!AU)
    mine is an evil laugh, burninating the countryside, HOOHOOHOOHAHAHA
    puella_nerdii
    I am behind as fuck on my [community profile] areyougame claims, but fortunately most of the prompts I picked up are Mith's and she has given me blanket permission to turn them in late if I need more time. So that's good. I am starting to wonder if I can actually write anything under 1000 words, though. ._. Or maybe I just picked prompts that automatically suggest something longer, for the most part. OH WELL. I'll write what I write when I write it, and at least I'm writing, even if I'm not writing as quickly as I need to in order to hit certain deadlines. And I don't want fic to be a source of stress right now. I've got enough stuff to stress over. thesiiiiiiiiiiis

    But there are fun things, too! Like Suikoden II boyband AUs (also mirrored on DW, if you prefer), which apparently happened when I -- well, let me copy-and-paste.

    So one day, Puel and I were tossing headcanon around, you know, like we do, and I made a comment about how Luca Blight probably has a fine-looking pair of hands. Like, classical-guitarist level of fine-looking hands, long fingers, strong fingernails. Puel misheard the "classical" part of classical guitarist and envisaged Luca Blight holding an axe up over his head and yelling THIS IS THE POWER OF ROCK!!!!!!! as he smashed the poor instrument down upon the nearest amplifier.

    Then this happened:


    Once upon a time, in a recording industry near and dear to our hearts, there was a major company called Jowston Records. The recent financial crisis and differences of opinion as to the state of the industry fragmented Jowston Records into several genre-specific imprints. Highland Records, a rival company, has been exploiting these fissures in the hopes of taking Jowston Records down completely and dominating the scene. But Highland Records is involved in some pretty shady shit, and that corruption has spread down from the executives to the bands themselves.

    One of the most popular bands on the Highland Records label, a power metal band (with a sizable mainstream following) called The White Wolves, is in the middle of its second North American tour. Two unfortunate roadies and amateur artists witness lead singer and guitarist Luca Blight involved in an incident of arson, possibly to cover up a drug-related murder, and flee before they’re caught at the scene. This incident is covered up in the press, and these boys are outraged. They run into an indie duo, Blue Lightning and the Bear, who bring them on board as they search for ways to save Jowston from what looks like an inevitable buyout from Highland.

    But one boy decides to expose Highland Records’ corruption by promoting the Jowston label, and the other decides to take Highland down from the inside...


    We just have the cast breakdown up so far (and requisite comment-silliness), but though we aren't going to write the WHOLE damn thing, we're probably going to poke at shorts where Viktor gets cockblocked by his disturbingly sentient iPhone and Luca Blight repeatedly breaks the character limit on Twitter due to excessive punctuation and Shu struggles to find someone who understands his exacting latte preferences and Jowy cringes when he hears Riou's VERY POINTED LYRICS on every Top 40 station in the country. If you want to ask questions or throw prompts or giggle with us (hint hint), go ahead!

    I'll be over here, gloating over the fact that I got Mith to write a boyband AU. :D

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    Writermodes.
    pages upon pages, writer of fiction
    puella_nerdii
    This arose out of a conversation [personal profile] mithrigil, [personal profile] pyrrhiccomedy, [personal profile] wizzard890, and I had. Many things were said, but some of the most salient stuff was about the differences between writing original fiction and writing fanfic, and the topic's been percolating in the back of my head ever since.

    I've been doing a lot of both lately, and what struck me most is that original fiction builds forward, while fanfic builds outward.

    What do I mean by that?Collapse )

    Fandom is, in short, about untold stories -- but you can't tell untold stories if you haven't told the basic story first.

    And hey, this entire line of reasoning also explains why I can't stand Victor Hugo.

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    Meme. In bed.
    attention: sex, you can raise welts like nobody else
    puella_nerdii
    It's been a while, but I've always been fond of this one.

    Give me a character from any fandom you know I know, or any original work of mine, and I will talk -- probably at length -- about what he or she or it is like in bed. (I will probably be able to talk longer about fandoms that are either current favorites or that I've written a lot of things for, but it's me, I can ramble about nearly any character's sex life if you give me enough time.) Ask for one at a time, please; after I answer your first, you may proceed ad nauseum.

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